Getting back in the saddle (for those of you who know me - definitely figuratively)

Yesterday spending time visiting a friend, getting a massage and doing some accidental retail therapy (meant to go to grocery store, happens to be next door to great little shop). 

I focused on being in each moment… consciously pushing the negative and sad thoughts out.  For those of you wondering - this does take a lot of effort and energy.  Friday night I was not nearly as successful as I couldn’t control the tears dripping down my face while I sat between Dan and my friend in Shabbat services. But as I am learning - I won’t dwell on that. Saturday was much better… I even made it through an entire social gathering of adults (most of whom I did not know) and we stayed until the end.  That is new for me!  

Today I came back to my classroom - alone.  I had arranged to have a friend come and stay with me, but I decided I had to try.  I put on some music and started dancing and cleaning (luckily nobody was around).  I sent my friend a text telling her that she did not have to spend her Sunday babysitting me and I’d be fine.  Lucky me - she came anyways - with Starbucks and lots of help - with both cleaning and talking.  Made the experience much more enjoyable!  But I am happy to report I think I would have made it through OK even if I was on my own!  

Oh the power of positive thinking…. going to try to keep it going! Of course I don’t want to discount the power of retail therapy either (sorry Dan)!