Insurance sucks too

Warning... rant ahead:

I had finally gotten to radically accept (that means totally and completely) that I would probably be in treatment for the 90 days or close to it, of the 90 day DBT treatment I enrolled in.  At first I thought there is no way I need 90 days, or that I could be away from work for so long, or a million other thoughts that raced through my mind.  But today, as I completed day 13, I was informed that my insurance is switching me from a full day program to a partial day program effective immediately.  And they are doing that for a grand total of 4 days and then we will have to fight to get more coverage.  I am not one that curses (ok, in public) that often, but WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!  

Is it just me, or does anyone else find it absolutely fucking ridiculous that the health care in this country can decide that 17 days of a 90 day program is enough to band-aid the situation and I will be alright.  I did this in April, and even then I did 4 weeks.  Obviously it was a success, right????

While you are experiencing and struggling with anxiety and depression there is little else that can feel as invalidating of your illness and hopes of recovery than news like this.  

I am blessed I know, because I will most likely get the support I need, out of pocket.  It will suck.  I am not happy about this, yet feel lucky that that might even be an option.  

My emotions are all over the place, but one thing I am certain of, is that mental health care in this country might suck as much as what I am going through.  

I am going to keep this short and just let out a stream of curses… I’ll spare you all of them - but anything you are imagining at the moment is probably still tamer than what I am saying!  

(Random fact of the day and to leave this on a more upbeat note: did you know that these are called Grawlixes, profanitype or symbol swearing)