I am labeling myself a rational toddler

Toddlers are willful.  They make statements such as “IT’S NOT FAIR!,”  “I DON’T WANT TO!,”  and “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!” That was a “fun” part of parenting that I experienced for several years and expect to again as my girls become teenagers; however, I never thought that I’d be admitting that at 39 years old I’d be saying these phrases over and over.  But I have and I’ve been tempted to stomp my feet and throw a good old temper tantrum (I haven’t yet).  Why you might ask?  Because I am being willful.  I am being stubborn and obstinate.  I simply don’t want to begin with a new therapist.  

Please be kind to my husband... he's dealing with me!

But I am also being rational and using the new skills I have learned to do some radical acceptance.  Asserting my wants and needs, researching lots of options, reaching out for input, and using the resources I have available for the next few weeks to try and move forward.  In my dream world I wouldn’t be having to do this.  I am trying so hard to not play all the “what ifs” in my head.  I am attempting to be open-minded.  It’s just so hard!  

I have eight more days in day treatment to figure out my support system before I resume what I refer to as my “real” life. I am going to take that time to reach back to what I learned from Supernanny and put my toddler thoughts on the “naughty step” and also institute a reward chart for my willingness to adapt to my new reality.  I am thinking if I do everything I need to, without throwing a temper tantrum, a new pair of shoes is probably in my future (Dan - this is your warning)!