My Alignment is Still Off…

Disclaimer I had a flat tire last month - but this post has nothing to do with my actual car!

A roller coaster… a yo-yo… stuck on a hamster wheel… trying to swim through mud…  there are so many not quite accurate ways to describe what depression feels like - and it depends on the day - or even the hour or minute.  

But in my last post I wrote about the distorted thinking of constantly going towards the negative and it finally struck me that it feels like driving a car that is out of alignment.  If you’ve ever driven in a strong wind or when your car is pulling to one side or another you know what I mean.  Despite my desire to put my thoughts on cruise control, I am constantly struggling to steer my thoughts to stay in my “happy” or even “okay” lane, and it is truly exhausting.  I’m probably gripping the wheel way too tight, but I am afraid of crashing!  I’m hoping to either get my alignment fixed soon or be comfortable enough that I can loosen up a little!   Until then - if you see me swerving all over the road - please know that I am doing the best I can!  And some of you are like the inflatable gutters in a bowling alley for me - it’s really a compliment - you know who you are!  Thank you!